September 2019
Preface:
I started writing this in hopes that the nightly thoughts would ease. It’s my hope that if I write it down they won’t have to repeat over qand over in my head each night.
I know nothing will bring her back, I’m just hoping to find a way to move forward. I’m stuck in limbo an need a way out. This is my way out so I can continue as a wife and mom to those still here on earth with me. kThey deserve the best of me I can give to them.
Journal Entry:
“Something is wrong with Katelyn!”
I hear those words everytime I lay down at night. These five words that changed my life forever.
Everytime I replay them in my head the reaction is the same. The world shifts, its a physical shift, I feel it, sense, it and know my worked, my life, has been forever altered.
December 2022:
I wrote the above entry in my journal three months after Katelyn passed away. Katelyn is our daughter, she will forever be 21. For a matter of transparency on this blog, I will let you know that she wasn’t my biological daughter, she was my stepdaughter. Not that this matters to me, I just promised to keep things real on this blog and wanted to be transparent. Katelyn left us on June 10, 2019. She left behind a beautiful little girl, who was 18 months at the time.
I will write more about Katelyn and grieving as I continue this blog. For now, I am letting this journal entry stand on its own, as it still does in my journal. It has blank pages before it and after it, giving it it’s own private space in my journal.